Ok, part of what makes me a hot mess is my resume.
I did the regular work study stuff and joined the army reserves doing logistics and graduated from college. Since then I have kinda wandered. I never really used my major other than teaching abroad. I taught and worked in a vet clinic in the states.
Then we moved and I had kids. So, I don't know what to do now. I keep reading books. Trying to figure out what I might be good at. Find out what my priorities are and the best way to accomplish them. I feel like I was supposed to discover this in college, but I walked in thinking I knew what I wanted to do, so never wandered around much.
I just got a job at a tea shop that I love, and yesterday I found myself writing in a notebook what I want to do and the possible paths I can see to accomplish it because I am wandering. Then I started thinking about minimalism... I think I may need a few more days to process and consider where that fits in.